I have realised for a while now that my social life has changed , the fact is I just don’t go out in the evening much any more , don’t get me wrong I do socialise but it’s different now and I think I understand why….. It’s because fining my creative purpose has lead me to finally allow myself to be happy.
For years I was out and about some nights where good fun loads of laughs other nights could be dark, waking up feeling empty. Feeling sad and dissatisfied was my normal, I worked,drew in my sketch books, but inside was a void, I had no creative purpose.
Not going out for me is a time to amerce myself in my overwhelming passion and desire to make patterns and succeeded as a surface pattern designer. The funny thing is for the first time ever I can see it happening and it feels right and can see my self years to come making beautiful patterns for all sorts of things.
Since finishing the course, my creative life is on overdrive the face book group is such a great place, full of wonderful and creative ladies all with the desire to create pattern, and sharing our thoughts and feeling as we each undertake our creative journeys
So at the moment I am making pattern, getting a body of work together and will have my website up and running by the end of the year, my lists are long , and I have lots to do, but it’s all so worth it, I have support from family an friends and that’s all I need and self belief not self doubt!!!